Thursday, 5 December 2019

Adjusting period, april + jun + august 2014


adjusting period
Adjusting period ahead and in my way,
dream trying to get very real, very slow,
all the phantasms are becoming real,
I could live what once been just a show.

Not all deeds can fit in my new space,
but it is expanding, its limits fading,
overwhelmed by the rusticity of it all,
stopped my life from more degrading.

hungry for more, exhausted i do get,
everything known seems so brand new.
do i realize i feel happiness once again,
so little needed, so simple, if i only knew.

From change only the good can I gain.
erase the lines marking boarders of mind,
wipe the steam off and have a good look,
can't believe my effort just made me blind.

The known, the safety zone, public life,
foreigner I've become, all this makes me sick
needs not needed anymore that is a big shock.
likes just turn to dislikes without a click.

I am chasing the handle, still in sight bitch,
blury it gets on the way, fear is pushing me,
door holds the dam in one piece, prevents
from washing all the shit I don't wanna see.

There is the inevidable you can not evade,
no matter what, questions, doubts and tears,
if you miss the moment when it comes
you will be left in life only full of fear.

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