Thursday, 10 January 2013

Now and before, written on 06/07/20012, finished on 10/01/2013

Now and before

my soul travelled such a distance in all the years passed by,
through all those routes, hidden paths and wrong turns,
many of those were illusions based on a one big lie,
caused on my heart, soul and mind so many hard burns.

i thought that that was it, when i was thrown into the life
so empty, so hungry, i started to live the well known day-mare,
surrounded by crowd where dreams and rebelling was rife,
looking so hard for someone with whom my life to share

first she showed me the way, for which it was too soon,
found the treasure which i buried and hidden some time,
this gift is showing me the truth, now when it’s noon
and loosing the will, the power, seems like the worst crime.

than i got on the career shit i believed in for while.
thought the days i bumped of the wals built to constrain,
so many days it felt like being forced to live in exile,
making it so hard some sense in this life to obtain.

from loving life transofrmed into being shaken from hate,
merry go round in my feelings, thoughts and desires,
from buy and do not need, to the feeling it’s too late,
now my only job is, in me to extinguish all those fires.

than the thinking machine fired up it’s perpetual factory,
filed so many pages, emptied many times through my eye,
often i will find the truth in the past to my satisfactory,
advice and knowledge that i never would be able to buy.

authorities, so far, so wrong, so not willing to understand,
fitting in, killing individuality becomes issue of them all,
the hunger grows beyond my mind on the other hand,
the next step i will make will answer the ancient call.

now in midday questioning all the reasons why to go on,
as thoughts of an end become so warming, flattering,
the will is gone, the visions, the talks are based upon,
whether i get crazy or between the lines i’ll be reading.

the judgement day turns slowly into the last long night,
where forever the future of my conscience will be written,
time will show at the end of this path, if there is a light,
but the page i am about to turn can not be overwritten.

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