Free Yourself (ment myself), written in October 2010

Free yourself (ment myself)

maybe the simplicity is that big

thing I’m still searching for,

however deep I’m trying to dig,

i’ll always find the same closed door.

it’s like flash in front of my eyes,

light there is, see that you live,

the admired life without lies,

for my blindness I have to forgive.

it is my big sin and madness to be wasting the precious time

with endless search and the ever feeding anger for tomorrow,

same one you have found yesterday and not seeing it is a crime,

so set the sadness free and let it leave without sorrow.

do not bother my beloved and hated one of waving me goodbye,

you will find another victim soon to stab with your lying knifes,

now is the time to turn around and to wipe the fear and let it die,

open your eyes, look around and start to enjoy your real lives.

truth waits patiently, hidden in front of your eyes in rain,

unless you are ready to accept and face that you are the one,

throw away the fear and flush the emotions down the drain,

which were beating you from inside, enough pain was done.

Feeling, feelings ..., written on 08/07/2011

Feeling, feelings ...

feelings i had, i was living for,

feelings i feared, feelings i hoped for.

“gone cold, just like that”

feelings we fed, feelings we said we would protect,

feeling that now are about to disconnect

“gone cold, just like that”

feelings that are hurting deep inside,

feelings someone is ok to hide.

“gone cold, just like that”

feeling you dream not to have at all,

feelings which cause a stronger call.

“gone cold, just like that”

feelings about which we refuse to speak,

feelings that are leaving me so weak.

“gone cold, just like that”

feelings that thought us to feel,

feelings that forever will stay real

“never gone cold at all”

Elektrizujuce pulzy, finished on 03/12/2009

elektrizujúce pulzy

elektrizujúce pulzy,

plynúce pomedzi západmi a východmi sĺnk,

vnemy a podnety,

ktoré čas zmýva ako dážď zmýva špinu z okien

a zhoršuje nám viditeľnosť alebo priehľadnosť reality daného momentu.

komplikácia je jediná jednoduchá vec v živote,

pretože vždy nastane automaticky,

bez meškania a nepriaznivých vplyvov prostredia,

nedá sa podplatiť a je absolutisticky spoľahlivá.

krása jej jednoduchosti v našom svete plnom zbytočností a omylov

nám dáva pocítiť aká krehká škrupinka chráni naše šťastie.

hnuteľný majetok je nevyhnutne komplikáciou ovplyvnení,

ohrozuje našu záľubu v zbere papiera a kovov,

záľubu v papieroch,

ktoré neraz vyvolávajú túžbu po konci.

zmysel života nie je v komplikáciách,

komplikácie dávajú zmysel nasej snahe, životu

a dávajú nám ten realistický pocit žitia.

cit, ktorý jediný poznáme, milujeme,

žijeme s nim, produkujeme ho,

strach …. o naše sebecké malinké životíky.

Do or Don't, written 01/07/2011

do or don’t

live or don’t, choose or don’t,

go or don’t, pay or don’t,

believe or don’t, say or don’t

change or don’t, learn or don’t

says who, says who? says you, says you!

and only your decision to make

says who, says who? says you, says you!

be you at whatever they take.

buy or don’t, accept or don’t,

smile or you don’t, cry or you don’t,

trust or you don’t, lie or you don’t,

join or you don’t, enjoy or you don’t.

says who, says who? Says you, says you!

and only your decision to make

says who, says who? Says you, says you!

be you at whatever they take.

fight or you don’t, obey or u don’t,

pray or you don’t, fear or u don’t,

ask or u don’t, know or you don’t,

destroy or you don’t, crate or u don’t

says who, says who? says you, says you!

and only your decision to make

says who, says who? says you, says you!

be you at whatever they take.

you say or you don’t,

you’re good and you’re evil and you’re stupd and you’re blind,

you follow and maybe you  die.

or you just don’t!

Citove klamy, written in 2005

zaprášený cit, ale pevne vrastený a živý,

možno trocha zabudnutý časom … a beznádejou,

jej vietor z neho zmietol prach pochybnosti,

a rozhorel znova túžbu po stereo večnosti.

úsmev v očiach, tak výrazný,

dotyk ruky tak jemný, piče ...

obyčajné výkaly plavajuce v mozgu,

ktory by sa mal topit v stasti,

ale topi zvysok v nespracovanej

myslienkovej potrave,

ktoru vyvracia bez ohladu na seba,

dookola cistim jeho nestraveny bordel,

pre ktory vidim prilis vela

a to co vidiet chcem,

v tom mi zavadzaju zvratky

minulostou zazrane hlboko do svedomia,

z ktoreho vysavaju cas,

ktory chcem venovat tebe ...

srdce vsak bije ovela silnejsie,

nato aby ho niekto zastavil,

ho musi vypnut navzdy,

svedomie nezvladne ten boj,

rozum to vzda v prvom kole K.O.,

pretoze tuzba je taka silna,

ako nikdy predtym,

... tuzba po tebe ..., byt s tebou ..., drzat ta za ruku,

je vacsia ako chut cloveka prežit,

je silnejšia ako sila ľudského vedomia,

rastie, rýchlo, bez kontroly ...,

... bez samoty ..., úplne nahá a celá tvoja!

doslov ...? (... asi k sprostosti a naivite ...) 21.7.2005

.... hlavne bez dovodu a bez rozumu,

plachy umysel najst zivotne stastie

a krasa pohladu so slepou tuzbou

skoro zabila „to“, zrodene z tmavej minulosti

a hladu po buducnosti a zivote ako takom.

dve duse skoro rozdelil malicherny splaseny citik,

ktory sa prizivil na strachu a neistote,

pohlad do seba bol taky hnusny,

az som citil nenavist voci vlastnej dusi,

klopanie na dvere, za ktorymi je svet radov a zastupov,

aj ked mi dvere pribuchli pred zasnivanou tvarou.

stacilo sa otocit, tak malo aby som uvidel najviac.

otocil som sa chrbtom k svojej tuzbe milovat zivot a „ju“

otravil som sa vlastnym rozumom a falosnym citikom

a musel so vyzvracat všetku realitu snov,

aby som zistil, to co som daávno vedel ...

... to ze nechcem vediet nic ... iba zit a milovat!